I say that even with the best intentions, there’s a great deal of manipulation happening in church camps. Tell me I'm wrong... that these elements are not in church camps....
"It felt like I was looking in a mirror at an image of me that was five years older than I am now. And I got to wondering if he actually was me, sent from the near future...."
When I was a pastor I never practiced that “faith healing” crap. Yet even with my muted style, I could see people looking at me, waiting for a holy message to make them feel less desperate. It disturbed me to be given so much power.
I’m still here and I’m still me. I’m still humorous, musical, creative, passionate, loving, and enormously graceful on the dance floor....
If you follow Jesus you might want to remember that he wasn’t an American citizen, he didn't play football, and he damn sure didn’t own a gun.
The church claims to be an instrument of truth. How do people find truth if they are not allowed to ask, seek, and knock? Is the institution really so fragile that it can’t handle my voicing my thoughts?
I haven't lost myself. I'm growing up.
My consciousness… that presence behind the eyes that processes my thoughts and experiences--does it drift away and go somewhere else?
I used to count heavily on the hope of a hereafter. I preached about it often and referred to it in my funeral sermons. But I'm done with the concept.
My anger faded quickly once I left the church.